Time for another new walk of life.

I'm lost.
Totally lost...

My heart hurts with every flashbacks of her...
Time and time people could easily find another one as her love...
But not me... Just a stupid retarded who only know how to love one.

She might has lost her grandma...
I have lost her...
She's no longer the one, I use to know...
She's not the old one, who stole my heart...
She's never the same person.

Each day, I hope that I could have the old feelings back...
The feeling of feeling really happy... Feeling really loved...

But never again...
I know...
Never again, it will happen...

And now, I do not even know, are all those "love" I had real?
Or am I just being lead on...

I guess she's having another relationship again already from the way she reacts...
I'm the only stupid one who do not know how to love another and miss another...
Yea... So stupid...
Even people asked me to go out with them they wanna intro girls to me and confirm millions time better then her... I rejected them all...
How stupid I was huh...

It hurt's...
But I guess it's time to find someone new worthy of my love...
Someone who is faithful. Who don't hides everything from me...

I don't know if it's right or wrong to find someone new and if not suitable, then another new one...
But I'll try it, since someone is doing it soo oftenly...

Well, one of my sisters say she'll show me so called million times better...
I shall see, how true it will goes...

No doubt,
I'll forget the past.
I will not bother shits anymore...

My life from now on will only have 2 things.
Work and fun. I won't care about anything else.
And oh ya of course my sweet sister who wanna intro me girls...

Cheers~

flew into your heart at [3:43 AM]